you may be wondering why the secrecy…that so i wont be judged. I’m a nobody. I’m that girl you pass everyday in the hallway without a second thought. I’m the girl you only talk to when you need something done. I love writing and quotes. I’m in high school which is turning out to be the worst years of my life..but hey that is okay..ill survive..hopefully. The whole idea of this blog it to show people whats inside my head and poems I’ve written. If you are going to hate don’t read because i don’t need anymore of that in my life.
we lay together in a heap of sweat and love, i can smell you even though its over i can still feel your hard throbbing cock in me, teasing me every time you run your hands along my clit, i can feel you through the sheets as you sleep, quiet, beautiful you are still naked arms wrapped around me holding your naked body to mine. we are together as one.
every day is the same I wake up into somebodies world and live their life, theirs, not mine and yet nobody knows...... that's funny how people say live life to the fullest but what do you do when your life is empty and has holes in it?
you really wanna know who I am
I’m just a fuck up with a broken heart
and slit wrist
but you dont care
no of course not.
Im not so sure anymore and its killing me from the inside out. i want to be able to have fun like a normal teenager but i cant.im always second guessing myself and checking over my shoulder. thats okay. ill get over it.
you know how when a new year starts your supposed to have a new years resolution. hears mine:
1.stop thinking about “him”
2.change everything about me
3.forget the people that hurt me
4. try something new
5. and i want to tell LJC about what I’ve done
Also now that a new year is right around the corner i’m ready to let everything go. i’m ready to forget the bad and also the good. I am me. In the past year I’ve lost Adam..the one boy before LJC that i let myself care for..he passed away because of choices i made. i lost Ashley because she literally took a bullet for me. What i don’t get is how all this has happened and i still feel like I deserve a second chance. I’ve lost LJC, i let my guard down and i let myself be vulnerable.And he doesn’t even know.